a little thought

i thought life was dry when it's been so calm and peaceful...
but when challenges comes in i'd rather life be simple...
a friend said the greatest regret is living without regrets...
perhaps it's the little humps that add colour to our lives???

teeth alignment

visited my (new) dentist today... cleared the tea & coffee stains for chinese new year... he said two of my upper teeth are kinda rotated and he suggested teeth alignment... what?! meeee??!! thought i'd never need it... when her majesty announced her decision to have her teeth aligned, i thought she's super brave...

he also proposed wisdom teeth extraction, changing of tooth filling, and whitening to my teeth... understandbly i looked pretty lost at the end of the consultation... and he asked me not to worry and just to treat it "for fun"... right, nowadays patients are clients... dentists are beauticians... indications for surgery are often "patient's preference".... o gee... after ear-piercing, i have something else to consider...

my favourite things

long time no blog... back to a three-day call roster hence i'm using up all my off time to sleep... have so many many things on my to-do list... no time to complete... start to be bothered by this job hunt biz... glanced through my cv... i can't find a reason why they should offer me an interview... ai... i just wanna sit there and wait for a job to come to me...

sound a bit blue these days... think i'm getting used to the new job... it's not as bad as i imagined... at least i begin to accept sleepless call nights... but it's very tiring... and me very low energy...

still figuring out what will cheer me up... remember "my favourites things" in the sound of music, one of my favourite songs... i've brought my chip&dale whirly-whirly pen with me... bringing more and more stuff toys to hospital probably won't help... perhaps i should add some candies to my pocket... plus my "clinique happy" perfume... and what else?

i need to bark

today is not my day...

to be on duty on a sunday yet not on-call is disasterous... i'm supposed to work 4 hours today... to cover 5 wards... to finish the "homework" there... my tasks today included and included only blood taking, setting drips, renewing medication charts, 2 ECGs, admitted 1 patient and escorted 3 CTs... nothing else... absolutely nothing else... nothing that require the skills nor the brain of a doctor... a doctor who's brilliant enough to enter and survive the med school... whom people around are so proud of...

having to do these during weekend is not a problem... the work load was so heavy that i had to work 3 hours (i.e. 75%) overtime is... the day didn't end here... no it didn't... it's complicated by my beluved golden-ying being impounded... i'm actually a kind of person who's happy to follow rules... i've learnt to since i was small... even for the most ridiculous ones... but the bootbootcar of a doctor in a hospital being impounded in the staff carpark of the same hospital is hilarious... why not let your junior-most staff use it on a sunday when it's an empty ground??? to cheer them up so that they develop some sense of belonging and then they work better... so i paid some hundred bugs to release the golden-ying... it's not a lot of money... and i've been dashing betweeen wards for 7 hours only to earn a few hundred bugs... isn't it sarcastic???

it's a week since i arrived this hospital and i'm not too happy with things i have to say... had plenty of thoughts on my way home... kinda disappointed... we're so respected by many many people... but people of our own circle... our dear consultants and the adminstrative people... i have the to passion to work and to learn... but where do i find energy when i feel like a slave carrying her pager every day.... i'm optimistic though... remember i hated it when i was back at the teaching hospital... and i left missing my colleagues...

bored

there's nothing i can write here apart from work... for the whole week i was busy adapting to this new environment... in summary, work is tough, people are nice, patients are ill, meals are not gauranteed, bedroom is cool but i haven't time to use it...

frustrated

why do i have to work tomorrow???
why is there no break between jobs???
why do changes always come on big days???
why do we always hurry to change hospitals???
why is briefing arranged after work has started???
why are quarters always far from wards???
when will i be able to take quality sleep???
when can i find a time for facial + massage???

i'm having these uncertainties every 3 months and i'm very sick of them...

happy 2006 mates...