you're always on my mind

an extraordinarily hot summer

am returning to my blog in my birthday month... after my refreshing trip to north america, i'm rehabilitating myself at work... o gee i'm putting on weight... and i have no clue how to halt the 'growth'... since i'm supposed to be less busy, there're loads of stuff on my to-do list... it's all about study... i don't wanna imagine what will happen if i don't start working now...

a few people has come to my mind today.... i was reading some journals and i suddenly thought of the old days... people who're once very close to me and now i don't keep touch with often... i just wish them well... i wish i have the energy to email them & say hi... perhaps it's the right time since i'm having less stress in LKB...

remember i visited her on my birthday last year... she already lost sense of time & dates then... i told her it's my birthday and she wished me happy birthday... i dunno why i suddenly miss her so much tonight... knowing that i'll never get happy birthday from her anymore... i couldn't hold my tears... literally everything could remind me of her (even old photos of steve's grandma did)... i wish i could just pick up my keys & drive to see her like the old days, and tell her about my trip & work & birthday and stuff... i looked into the calender it's 157 days since farewell... i've actually got over it... but september is such a festive month of mine... am going to celebrate my birthday for the first time without her... the tune is whirling around me... "you're always on my mind.... you're always on my mind..."