i need to bark

today is not my day...

to be on duty on a sunday yet not on-call is disasterous... i'm supposed to work 4 hours today... to cover 5 wards... to finish the "homework" there... my tasks today included and included only blood taking, setting drips, renewing medication charts, 2 ECGs, admitted 1 patient and escorted 3 CTs... nothing else... absolutely nothing else... nothing that require the skills nor the brain of a doctor... a doctor who's brilliant enough to enter and survive the med school... whom people around are so proud of...

having to do these during weekend is not a problem... the work load was so heavy that i had to work 3 hours (i.e. 75%) overtime is... the day didn't end here... no it didn't... it's complicated by my beluved golden-ying being impounded... i'm actually a kind of person who's happy to follow rules... i've learnt to since i was small... even for the most ridiculous ones... but the bootbootcar of a doctor in a hospital being impounded in the staff carpark of the same hospital is hilarious... why not let your junior-most staff use it on a sunday when it's an empty ground??? to cheer them up so that they develop some sense of belonging and then they work better... so i paid some hundred bugs to release the golden-ying... it's not a lot of money... and i've been dashing betweeen wards for 7 hours only to earn a few hundred bugs... isn't it sarcastic???

it's a week since i arrived this hospital and i'm not too happy with things i have to say... had plenty of thoughts on my way home... kinda disappointed... we're so respected by many many people... but people of our own circle... our dear consultants and the adminstrative people... i have the to passion to work and to learn... but where do i find energy when i feel like a slave carrying her pager every day.... i'm optimistic though... remember i hated it when i was back at the teaching hospital... and i left missing my colleagues...