Sunday, June 25, 2006

brush brush brush your teeth

another busy week... enjoyed very much my day off today...

i was in an mtr train when i saw this little girl... she's around 8 years old... travelling with her parents... she's asking her dad to hold her... so she was looking up at her dad while she held her hands around his belly hoping dad would take her... then i saw her teeth... the back of her upper incisors were all black... it doesn't need any medical knowledge to tell those were all decayed teeth... very scary scene... o dear... i thought that happens only on ETVs... that moment i thanked yingyingbird for brushing teeth with me b.d. when i was small...

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

counting down

have been working crazy this week... pretty exhausted... i seriously think i'm doing too much being an intern in the second last week... on the other hand i enjoy what i'm doing, scary... i'm pretty happy actually that people around acknowledge what i do... it surprised me that the USU is not bad in the end, that i actually enjoyed my time here and that HBP is not that hateful... i'm really glad to have worked with the cos here... who is a very respectable and considerate person...

people are counting down our last intern days... practically office-hour slaves to be released soon... we're waiting for the preinterns to come and takeover some of our duties... me not too excited... think i'm not ready to face the change... 10 days is way too short... i won't have time to prepare anything anyway... chatted with an MO today... perhaps he's right... when it comes, it comes, and it will be fine... remember i once thought final MB was a mission impossible and internship was another... mum's right... when we look back, what once mattered become tiny... that's life...

Sunday, June 18, 2006

epigastic pain

having quite bad epigastric pain these days, for the first time in my life... so much so i slept some 17 hours from friday to saturday... i begin to understand why mum frowns when she has it, and she has it so frequently... am wondering if i've got peptic ulcers... am wondering whether i need a scope... um...

Thursday, June 15, 2006

uncertainties, again

it's been a busy week... i'm so tired every evening that i ain't able to do anything and can't be bothered to talk to anyone...

i ain't very good at dealing with uncertainties... unfortunately i am facing it quite frequently... am joining a team different from my old team in PMH... i have no idea how i'm gonna handle a MO's duty... feel so unprepared... there're loads that i wanna read up especially about infectious diseases... but where comes the time???

Saturday, June 10, 2006

christian gathering

went to this christian gathering today... i was taken there by calvin... i'm once again proven to be a person who doesn't say no... it's not bad though... a topic about life and death... there're doctors who shared their experiences... because the speakers share the same background, it's kinda resonant... gave me a chance to think over things... there're plenty of things that i agree with... but i don't quite understand their devotion to christ, yet... anyway...

been arranging group reunion this week... i didn't do a good job... still quite some will come... very happy... i just wanna meet up with them... people whom i'm proud to meet...

there's an adorable friend of mine who's not feeling too well... think she's so brave... i wish her well... should be no problem...

Thursday, June 08, 2006

little break

taken compensatory leave today, together with my rabbit... very happy... we had nice japanese food lunch... went shopping... i bought a handbag and 2 watches... for dirt cheap price... and we watched this film called the island, highly recommended... very nice break... the last one in my internship though... but there's a price to pay, i worked still 2240 last night... very mad... the urologist simon said once there's an even harder-working intern who worked till 2am on a non-call day... he refused to tell me the name... becoz he knew i'd spread the news, haha...

remember my future boss tong yeh asked me about this working overtime biz during central interview... of course i told him i dun mind at all... in fact, i'm a mild workaholic... by mild i mean that i'm happy to work overtime... well it depends how it is defined... i think i work overtime every day... but having to work "super" overtime on a non-call day is very frustrating... at one point i was literally nauseated last night... especially when the time was again, spent dealing with some terrible patient's family...

Sunday, June 04, 2006

on-call sunday

did something really naughty this on call day... had lunch with family, very warm though... yyb bought me the last bigbig gift, a new bootboot car... he said i'll have to take care of myself from now on... i didn't ask for it... but then he thought that i should get it... of course i didn't refuse, it's such a nice one... am very happy and very grateful... am gonna miss my golden ying... been serving us for 12 years... he's gonna retire in two months time... need to take plenty of pictures...

Saturday, June 03, 2006

nasty patient's family

had pretty bad call last night... didn't get much sleep since 3am... which is kinda extraordinary in twh... hence, my precious 1-in-20-days off was all spent on sleeping... woke up 5pm... bad...

met a difficult patient's family yesterday... actually the patient has been hospitalised before i was there... the son tried every means to do something for his mother... who's deteriorating and dying... she's gasping yesterday... it took a long time for the case MO to tell him really no further intervention will be of benefit... then he came to me at night hoping some intravenous fluid will bring his mother back... i don't think he accepted what we said in the end but he had no choice...

he's really a pain... well there're many relatives like him who feel bad about seeing the patient die and not do a thing... it's very acceptable for someone to have this kind of feeling... but he's so stubborn... he heard but didn't listen... what's more he talked to you as if he's very understanding... almost killed me... he thought we didn't give her a chance and we're withdrawing all our treatments... i personally think he's not giving the patient a chance to retain some dignity in the last hours of her life...

scares me to learn that i have to handle all these people myself in weeks time... really need to brush up my communication skills...