dysthymia

don't even know what weather was like

9 days into july... have switched to ID team... thought resp was tough... ID can only be harder... given i know nothing about those bugs and stuff... the mysterious HIVs... a flu outbreak... and get to see consultations where anyone who sent the consultation is actually more experienced than myself... even more stunning is a super inconsiderate team head who has decided not to release our other duties and had us to work on 20+ patient's each day... because "manpower is tight"... o thanks... is there a minute when manpower is not tight??? it really really upsets me to realize my team head doesn't think his staff is working hard enough... it's easy for him to say o you take care of this and this and that for meanwhile la... o excuse me how meanwhile is meanwhile le??? one day a colleague came to me and said i had a typical depressive facies... am glad other colleagues are nice and supportive... and seniors came to share our workloads on saturday... how comes everyone be so nice and the one with greater power just ignore how stressed we are...

am lucky to have a senior who's nicer than angel and a kind & understanding partner to work with me... or i'd been living in tears for the past week... i think i quite like it though... given so much fun and new things to learn... it's just not the right time... i literally work nonstop each day except for an half-hour lunch break... not even time for water & loo... am home even later than my parents tonight (bad prognostic sign)... omg... am so exhausted after work that i haven't really read since the beginning of the month... i dun think i shall pass the exam... just can't help it and that upsets me more... i've already marked my leave for a re-sit... that's quite mad isn't it...