very very malaise

am still pretty excited about the new computer... people who know me would know i ain't a technology freak... but the fact that i have an extra piece of nice and modern looking gadget is just good enough to cheer me up... have been working till late night for the journal club today... thanks to my new toy for keeping my eyes open...

now that journal club is done... the next presentation is yet to come... my part one result pending... plus only 4.5 calls this month... it's the perfect time (though short) for me to do what i really love to do without any "guilt-feeling"... the kind of life that i always adore... it's quite sad since there're only very limited weeks each year that i'm really stress- and hassle-free...

it is all wrong... it is wrong that i need to long for happy times to come... i should be turning all my days into hassle-free days by better prepare for each "stressor tasks" well in advance... if i had prepared for the journal club earlier then i wouldn't have to go through the stress in the past few days... but in reality there're so many many things to do and yet i ain't efficient enough to have it all completed without hassle... sigh...

another happy bit is i am enjoying my time in the respiratory team... did i mention i have a super nice senior??? i describe him as kind as an angel... he's always ready to help out and teach and i never feel uneasy to seek his help... remember i mentioned the terrible phenomenon of all nice male doctors pair with nurses? he, unfortunately, is an example...

there's a (typical) old lady admitted for shortness of breath together with a dozen nonspecific symptoms and complained about this and that for half an hour... so my senior put down in his notes... numbness, very dizzy, very very malaise... "very very malaise"... i love this... i could feel how poor this patient (and the doctor) are from three simple words... must be very very malaise.... hahaha...