on call OT

today me on call OT for the first time... started off with 2 Cat A surgeries... both were pretty interesting actually... there're 6 doctors around the table... the patient doesnt look like a living person at all... the whole of him apart from head and limbs were all exposed... it's more like an anatomy dissection session...

it's so tiring... and i was doing nothing in there... i'm reassured that not doing surgery is the right choice... it's so right... and i can further confirm that i really really hate surgery... i'm glad that i'm going to tung wah and there's no OT call there... i still have a lap chole to go... i think i've had had enough for the day... hope it will be good tonight...