isn't it too much?

it fluctuates...

i think this is too much... this is way way way too much for her... for the past half a year she spent her time in hospital bed... it was hard to move her body... she wasn't even able to turn herself... and she got bedsores... for a short while she was better and happier... recently a TB effusion knocked her down again... she's so much weaker... she's too weak to talk... too weak to look at me... too weak even to swallow... though she's mentally sound she's thinking of something, she couldn't be bothered to tell me... each time i visited her she told me she's having a hard time... she's in pain here and there... like every mintue is long for her... this is suffering... too much suffering... she's been good all her life... i don't see why she get this at her eighties... being bed ridden is bad enough... why pain here and there... why six long months... stroke is horrible enough... why spine fracture why spinal cord infarct why tuberculosis why effusion...

please, don't make her suffer... keep her comfortable and pain free... am not asking for more... i know cannot ask for anything... it stabs my heart each day to see her, being her physician granddaughter whom she's loved all her life, knowing nothing much helps...